Monday, December 10, 2012

YES!

Today made up for Friday. Friday was awful. I hated my jump rope. I cried when I got home.

Today I came home ready to sign up for CF games. Well, not really, but I felt as though this was the best WOD I've done yet. I hung in there the whole time, gasping for breath, dying for water, but I crushed it! Today the voice in my head was not Justin yelling "rep it out, Kelly," but it was my own saying, "Don't you dare give up!"

First we learned a hang-snatch, which was a very new skill for me. I did not find the movement to be natural or enjoyable, but I got a few good reps in. We worked for a 5 rep max on the hang snatch and I was able to do 5 successfully with 45#. I tried 50# but couldn't quite get under the bar.


The WOD was 8 minutes AMRAP (As Many Reps as Possible) of 1 KBS (KB = Kettlebell swing), 1 burpee, 2 KBS, 2 burpees, 3 KBS, 3 burpees, etc. in 8 minutes. I was able to work up to a total of 9 KBS / burpees in 8 minutes for a total of 45 each. I felt wasted, but great at the end which is exactly how I was supposed to feel. It was a great start to my day.

Saturday, December 8, 2012

Starving

Almost exactly two years ago I wrote this post about baking bread from scratch over at The Accidental Homeschooler (before I began avoiding gluten, but the principle remains). I have reflected a lot on the concept of starvation, and it came up again yesterday in my thoughts. I am currently reading Robb Wolf's book The Paleo Solution, and there are many references to starvation, both actual and perceived starvation, the latter of which leads to diabetes, insulin resistance, and the like. This would be the starvation that we Americans are experiencing, in epidemic proportions. There is also the starvation that people in Africa and third-world nations experience which comes from the body literally not having enough to eat for extended periods of time, but that is certainly not what we are seeing here around us. The reality is that both lead to an untimely death. A famine of any kind will kill--it's just a matter of time and technique.

Famine of Truth
Famine is defined as extreme scarcity of food, a shortage, or hunger. We Americans have hardly seen famine (in the classic sense) in our land in the last century, but I think that we are experiencing various kinds of famine on multiple levels at this very moment. One is for truth. We are are taught by government schools that the FDA food pyramid (backed by all of the agriculture companies) is best for our nutritional intake. T.V. ads convince us that drugs will protect and improve our health. We hear the message in pop-up ads daily, "Lose weight without diet or exercise with this one weird trick!" Hogwash. People are convinced that they are free to behave however they prefer, and that government health care will pick up the tab for the consequences. No one is telling them the truth that they and their children are fat because they are starving to death. No one is telling them that the lies they believe are going to take them to the grave.

Famine of Discipline
Why is the show The Biggest Loser so popular? Why are they bringing Jillian back to the show? Because no one kicks butt and yells like Jillian. No one. People either love her or hate her. I happen to love her for her butt-kicking ways. People who apply for that program are desperate for discipline. They know they have reached a point where they cannot help themselves in their obesity, and hope that someone will be tough on them, yell at them, and hopefully save their lives. They begin to understand that the only way to do it is by severe discipline and the horribly unfair tactic of kicking people out of the program for under-performance. No public school would dare do such a thing to/for the kids--they wouldn't dare! But we love to see it happen on t.v. because deep down inside we wish someone would do that for us.

Famine of Relationship
My husband and I were shopping in Costco the other day and we saw Thanksgiving in a box. Literally--24 pounds of food with a small turkey already roasted, potatoes, green beans, and cranberry sauce in a box. All you had to do is warm it up. We were pretty amazed--I mean, I know sometimes people want convenience, but seriously, what is happening to us? In other cultures, and in our own in times past, relationships, family, and friendship took root around the food that we ate. This still happens occasionally, but I don't think you have to work your brain too hard to think of all the little cracks in the foundations of our relationships. We are overworked, over-scheduled, over-exhausted, over-stimulated, overwhelmed. It is our relationships that are supposed to be the balm that soothes all of that, but we seem to be too exhausted or too busy or too ashamed to fall into the comfort that those close relationships are meant to provide! Very few people are willing to be authentic these days and share their strengths and weaknesses with each other. It just isn't cool.

Abundance
One of my biggest struggles these days is figuring out what to have for meals and cooking them. The simple fact of the matter is that it takes time, and a lot of it. Finding good sources of uncontaminated food is expensive, and I have to work at new ways of preparing it that doesn't involve grains and sugars. But even so, eating these days has taken on a new dimension in the life of our family--we are home constantly, eating together, preparing food together, and enjoying one another. We have to clear our calendars and make room in the schedule to be home (doesn't that sound weird?)--running through a drive through is not an option. We are taking time to exercise and work our our bodies as they are meant to be used. We gather regularly with friends who share these same values and just hang out, sometimes pooling our resources and cooking together. There is usually a glass of wine and deep conversation involved. I am in a place of abundance and balance right now with a healthy understanding that this could change at any moment because there are no guarantees in life.

You might be wondering what CrossFit has to do with all of this, since that is what this blog is supposed to be about, but it has everything to do with it! When I walk into the box, there is honesty, discipline, and authenticity, all rolled into one package, but I have to want all three before I can even set foot in the place. When I show up for my workout, it is impossible to be dishonest--I have to bear the truth of myself when I go in. Everything in me is raw--if I haven't eaten enough or have eaten too much or the wrong things, not drunk enough water, or slept enough, it shows in my performance and my mood. If I do well or poorly in my WOD, I cannot hide it. The people around me are absolutely in the same boat. We want to see each other do well--we are helping each other compete against the same thing--our own weaknesses. CF encourages proper food consumption, proper use of the body, and relationship. I haven't been there long enough to say that I know these people well, but I already feel a sense of camaraderie growing each day that I go, and I like it. Some days it's hard to leave because I want to talk to someone a little more, get to know them a bit better, cheer them on a little more. It is no small thing, and I love what it is doing in my life.

All of this takes time. Even so, I only aim to claim back some of the time that the famines have stolen over the years, and to give it back to my kids with a good dose of healthy perspective. 

Friday, December 7, 2012

Good News, Bad News, or, Mother Said There Would be Days Like This

When I woke up this morning there was an anomaly in the atmosphere, and it was affecting my life. I woke up late, looked in the mirror and had such dark circles under my eyes I looked like I had been punched, in particular in my left eye. I dragged downstairs, got my coffee, and trudged to the box.

Okay, the good news first. I PR'ed my first weight. (PR means Personal Record.) I back squatted 125# where my baseline was 105#.

Now the bad news. I did not Rx the WOD. Translation: I did not do the WOD as prescribed. In fact, I did not even come close. The hideous truth is that everyone said, "good job," but I knew that I really hadn't done very well--they weren't the ones counting my reps.

The WOD was "Annie," 50, 40, 30, 20, 10 double unders and situps. I was able to complete about half of the required reps in 13:38. Everyone else was cleaning up. I was not able to master my rope or my frustration. I had difficulty with my rope, concern about my lower back (which is still sore from dead lifts on Wednesday) and at this point I can only do so many sit-ups, which today was around 100. I have no idea how many reps of jump rope I did, because I have to 3x the number on the WOD since I can't do a double-under. I just lost count.

Today was my worst CrossFit day so far. Good thing there will be more chances to try again.

Wednesday, December 5, 2012

Death by Pullups!

Today was actually a fun WOD. I don't usually think of them as fun in the moment, but I thoroughly enjoyed today's workout. First, I had missed Monday because I was not feeling well, and so my body was not hurting at all when I went in today. I had no stiffness or soreness in any muscles from last week, and I've had a couple of nights of good sleep, so I felt fresh and ready to go.

First I learned how to do a dead-lift. Boring, but good. Maxed out at 125#. My favorite lifts so far are the bench press and hang cleans (except for the bruises I sometimes get on my clavicle, but never mind).

Then the WOD was "Death by Pullups." That meant as many reps that you can complete in one minute on that minute of the workout, so 1 pullup the first minute, 2 the second, 3 the third, etc. I maxed out at 10 in 1 minute and then my left arm was burning so much that I couldn't get more than 5 in the 11th minute, so I was done. 10 + 5 was my score. I had hoped to get to 12 or 14, but next time. Even as I sit here typing, the pain in my forearm is making it hard to type! All together that was a total of 60 reps for my workout.

I had some concern coming in today that I would have lost some strength due to not having been there for a couple of extra days, but actually I found the opposite to be true. Coming in fully refreshed and recovered I was stronger than I have been. In the warm up there were 20 kettle bell swings and up until now I have used the 20lb bell. In the first set of ten I used the 20 lb. bell and it actually felt light. There was nothing between the 20 and 35lb bell, so I switched. Ho! It was much heavier, but in the switch, the coach gave me some very good pointers about how to tighten up and breathe correctly, and I was able to rep out the next 10 without any problem. Also, I was able to do the first 5 minutes or so with the next lighter band than I have been using for pull-ups, so I'm making a little progress there. I hope to be using the green band exclusively within a few weeks.

Tuesday, December 4, 2012

Baby Steps

So today was not my WOD day, and I missed yesterday, so I went out and jumped rope with the kids in this unseasonably warm weather, and something amazing happened.

wait for it...

I got my first double-under! One. Just one. But I did it.

It was not as hard as I thought it would be, but far from easy.

But I did it.

Monday, December 3, 2012

TMI

Sorry guys...no WOD today. Mother Nature and the challenges of womanhood won this challenge. I needed a day.

Sunday, December 2, 2012

Jillian Does CrossFit

I have always been impressed with Jillian Michaels, I won't lie. I once attempted to work through her "30 Day Shred" video. Mind you I failed, which is why I kicked it up a hundred notches and now do CrossFit where people can yell at me in person, but at least for a while it was going okay, and my husband came home and asked one day, "So how are you liking Jillian?" I said that I really liked the video and that it was going well. The kids were listening and piped right up, "But mom, you said you HATE Jillian!" I looked at them like they were crazy and said, "No I don't! When did I say that?" Their answer came without hesitation, "This morning, when you were working out!" Oh...well, I cannot be held responsible for what I say while working out.

Nevertheless, I got a chuckle out of this video today. I don't know if she was putting on to make it seem that CF is crazy business, or if she really got her butt kicked, but I'd like to think it was the latter. Well, either way I don't mind, as long as she doesn't put down CrossFit. Otherwise she'll have a lot of really strong, really fast people coming after her.


There is no doubt. CF is crazy business, and if I knew that "Angie" was going to be the WOD I just might be tempted to stay at home. I still have to function for the rest of the day, ya know? I'm just not there yet. Even so, I was feeling the pain, and thought that the WOD they did in the video was great. I'd jump into that one no problem. Except I'd have to scale the box jumps...but that's okay, I'm getting there.